My life as we know it...

jealousy.

Tue, 05 Apr 2005 12:24:04 GMT

We all get jealous. If you say you don't, you're lying to me, yourself, and everyone you tell that to.

It could be a child being jealous of another child on their birthday or a parent showing more affection to another child
An adult being jealous of someone being more successful at work/life
A mate being jealous of their signifcant other talking to someone else
or something like that.

You've all been guilty at one point or another. I used to say "I'm never jealous." That is just me bullshitting myself. We all have insecurities, and jealousy is one that no one can escape. We have to accept that everyone will get jealous. All you can do is accept the fact that why you're getting jealous is going to/has happened. Talking may work, but it will not cover up the fact that we all get jealous.

I am apologizing for my jealousy, but you should know why I'm jealous. I can't control it. However, I am still and will be jealous.

:D:D:D:D

Fri, 25 Mar 2005 03:28:44 GMT

omg i helped me and amber win tickets to ANY concert we want to go see!

i<3amber.enoughsaid.

I hope it made her happy, for I did it just for her. she rocks.

anyway, I'm trying to get a job. i need one. lacking money is not fun.

i'm selling a dvd player. i have two. so anyone want one? you know my room number.

OMG. i came across that minnesota school shooter's LJ. http://livejournal.com/users/weise

fucking sad, he was so neglected. it's so obvious. but that doesn't give him the right to do what he did. he deserved to die ^_^

anyway. i'm going bye bye

wtf omg.

Wed, 02 Mar 2005 05:42:20 GMT

[updates]

Sun, 13 Feb 2005 13:41:38 GMT

*TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey*
Name:	Chuck.
Birthday:	oct 14, 1983
Birthplace:	somewhere in texas
Current Location:	oklahoma
Eye Color:	blue
Hair Color:	brown
Height:	5'8"
Right Handed or Left Handed:	right
Your Heritage:	white?
The Shoes You Wore Today:	the same ones everyday.
Your Weakness:	females >:O
Your Fears:	being lonely!
Your Perfect Pizza:	meat lovers [drool]
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	not be single :) pass the classes?
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	LOL
Thoughts First Waking Up:	yay. im chuck. im great.
Your Best Physical Feature:	my robust body 8-) jk'n. um.. lol.
Your Bedtime:	whenver i'm tired.
Your Most Missed Memory:	senior year.
Pepsi or Coke:	pepsi
MacDonalds or Burger King:	mcd's
Single or Group Dates:	single
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	lipton nigga.
Chocolate or Vanilla:	chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee:	cappuccino
Do you Smoke:	fuck no
Do you Swear:	lol no, yes ;)
Do you Sing:	yes, not good though
Do you Shower Daily:	... no.
Have you Been in Love:	once.. got hurt like a mother fucker.
Do you want to go to College:	im there now bitch.
Do you want to get Married:	yes, after college.
Do you belive in yourself:	yes, i wish the person who made this could spell believe right :/
Do you get Motion Sickness:	no.
Do you think you are Attractive:	i'm the hottest mother fucker.
Are you a Health Freak:	no.
Do you get along with your Parents:	.. no.
Do you like Thunderstorms:	no.
Do you play an Instrument:	no.
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	lol yes 8-) do i remember it.. lol.
In the past month have you Smoked:	no. fuck that shit.
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	no. fuck that shit.
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	yes. like 4 times. im sick of dating. i want a relationship.
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	no.
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	no.
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	no.
In the past month have you been on Stage:	no.
In the past month have you been Dumped:	no. but i was rejected the other day...
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	no.
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	no.
Ever been Drunk:	lol. yes. NEW YEARS EVE!
Ever been called a Tease:	all the fucking time
Ever been Beaten up:	nah. im a stout ho'
Ever Shoplifted:	no.
How do you want to Die:	sleeping when i'm very old.
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	history teacher.. wait i am grown up!
What country would you most like to Visit:	... no where. i like america.
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

yeah, what I expected. it always happens.

Sun, 13 Feb 2005 05:13:10 GMT

pfff. eff it. eff it all. :/

Sat, 12 Feb 2005 13:36:24 GMT

Story time.

I met this girl from myspace tells me we have a class together, and believe it or not, we do. how coinidential? I guess. we dont really talk much after meeting. why? I don't know. but then we trade some comments on myspace. she comes out of no where with an instant message on AIM. we talk for like. 6 hours. which was really fun. we decided to both go to our class and tlak and all that jazz. and then watch movies.

we do. class she shows up late b/c she had a wreck. glad she was okay :)

we watched garden state. i didnt really watch it. i was trying to stay awake towards the end. and me and her were talking. it was fun. I had a blast. I have a crush. it's weird. lol. I don't know if she had fun, hope she did. she is very cute :)

later on that night. i worked the dorms which was boring. then i decided to cut out early. i did. then, me and a few friends went out and drank. i haven't slept yet.

I'm about to go :)

you bloody wankers. comment.

Mon, 10 Jan 2005 23:35:16 GMT

woah. classes were okay. chemistry is going to kick my ass. i know it. help !

I am no longer on academic probation! my GPA is now a 2.0!!! don't laugh b/c it used to be a 0.561 :P Anyway, that means I will get full grant aid. and i can pay for college now :)

I got my books today. and it come to about 400 bucks. yeah. classes should be fun. other than chem.

I swear, there is no hot girls in my classes, except for spanish, and it's just kendra. im like WTF. i already know her. i wanted to meet other hot girls, but there is none!

Mon, 10 Jan 2005 02:29:37 GMT

I am back at college.
i had a nap. it was fun.
I have 16 hours next semester.

MWF consists of:
9am - oklahoma history
10am - chemestry
11am - computer applications
1pm-2:30pm - spanish

Thursdays:
1pm-5pm Chemistry lab

it's official. me and zar are going to have fun during spring break. i'm going to south padre island and staying in my sister's condo. i cannot wait. zar is 2kewl4skewl

Sat, 08 Jan 2005 00:14:56 GMT

i'm heading back to college tomorrow.

I won't be on as much, unlike you people even fucking read this shit :)

so yeah.

Mon, 03 Jan 2005 07:46:57 GMT

i'm on the phone. :D

Wed, 15 Dec 2004 07:59:19 GMT

finals week are here. i have a final at 1pm tomorrow. itll rock. its spanish :)

I am going home soon for xmas. that should rock.

leave me comments.

woah.

Tue, 07 Dec 2004 22:22:33 GMT

well, finals are coming around, and I should do okay.

basketball teams are doing fine. 9-4 are the guys and 11-1 are the girls.

I want a car and laptop.

rp is cool.

love me for i am sexy.

Wed, 24 Nov 2004 05:55:45 GMT

I'm on the phone with my friend lisa, how cool am i?

:O

Thu, 04 Nov 2004 01:54:58 GMT

i'm working in the newsroom. it sucks. :)

w3rd

Wed, 03 Nov 2004 17:52:55 GMT

BUSH WON :D :D

my new cellular phone #

Tue, 02 Nov 2004 18:02:35 GMT

if you want it. let me know. then you can call me. :)

580-298-.. the rest you must ask for :)

i saw this in mo's LJ. i enjoyed it.

Mon, 01 Nov 2004 20:13:21 GMT

homecoming is saturday. i need a date, anyone want to go?

wtf

Mon, 25 Oct 2004 17:38:19 GMT

so this girl from wyht that i have been talking to tells me she loves me. wtf fucking crazy girls. god damn it people. and then she has the fucking nerve to have her "model" friend call me and think that it's going to make some god for saken difference. shit like that makes me want to shoot people.

class is what i need to go to. spanish in 25 minutes. but it was cancelled :D

I've decided not to transfer until after I graduate here.

I love life.

uh oh

Sun, 24 Oct 2004 22:29:39 GMT

antlers lost thursday night, no suprise

college is getting boring. im going to transfer somewhere special.

I love tacos, :)

life is great :D

since people were asking why i dont update

Sun, 17 Oct 2004 20:52:55 GMT

Okay, I haven't updated in awhile, so here I go.

I've been so damn busy with football lately, it's hard for me to even get on the computer after 1pm. They told me when I started doing football, that I would not get any high school games, well I have gotten six games out of seven weeks. I'm probably finished with high school games, but it was killer fun while it lasted. I still have a few JR high games remaining, those should be fun. Atleast now I can go watch some of the good games around the state.

School is going okay, I'm starting to slack off again. I need to stop it. Which I probably will start going because I have to get B's or i'm FUCKED ROYALLY.

love life? I have one? jk'n

I was talking to this girl named Jessica, she was cool and all, turns out she didn't want a boyfriend but she liked me, wtf is that?!?! anyway, we talked and hung out, her friend liked me, so jessica used it as an excuse to "no longer" like me. I decided to give her high school friend a chance(she was 17 almost 18) and well, she was so fucking rude. she spent every fucking penny I had. I left with 50 bucks, came back with three dollars. and all we did was go to the movies and dinner, i can do that with two of my friends and pay for everything and it only cost about 35 bucks. going to the same god damn place! Anyway, me and Kelly didn't go out anymore, the fucking girl cried when I told her I didn't want to date anymore. she doesnt understand that I am a person who needs someone that is outgoing, not shy and what not. Then jessica tells me there is not a chance between the both of us, so that is where I am stuck now. :D

there we go, leave me comments.

okay

Sun, 12 Sep 2004 21:37:53 GMT

So, this has been what's up.

Thursday I went with Cody, Sackett and Tyler to Tulsa to watch one of the nation's best high school football rivalry games. Jenks High vs. Union High. Jenks won 17-13. One of the better games in the series. However, the highlight of the evening was when a girl was tumbling, turned around, and got kicked in the face by another girl tumbling. Delayed the game for about 20 minutes. It was hilarious though, I couldn't stop laughing.

Friday night we went to McAlester and took Hiroki to his first ever football game. We left at halftime because it was 21-0 Broken Bow. We went to Braum's, it's an ice cream store, and we were in the corner and right before we were going to leave, a little girl comes flying around the corner, slips and falls. We tried not to let the little girl see us laughing, her mom saw. She was like "I hope you think that's real fuckin' funny" my friend sackett said "yeah it was, it would have been fucking hilarious if she would have spilled the ice cream on herself" we left after that.

all in all a fun two days.

last night i was on the phone. it was fun, first time in a long time. i talked to maddie for like 2 hours. 'twas awesome!

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Tue, 07 Sep 2004 20:23:05 GMT

well that girl that i cuddled with, summer, i found some interesting stuff about her last night.

she is engaged.

fuck that shit. i'm fucking pissed. tell me she likes me and has feelings for me, yet on the weekends has a guy. i'm not even going to be played like that. I found out from her friend, who let it slip. she didn't meant to tell me. i'm going to confront summer tonight.

oh yeah, i haven't been online in days, and i didn't actually miss the internet, it was fun just hanging out in my room, chill'n with friends.

softball was fun, we 7-1 in 3 days. we rock. we are 10-1-1 right now.

GIRLS=confusing.

Fri, 03 Sep 2004 14:24:31 GMT

God, WTF. Summer is so fucking confusing. The day after we cuddled and all that jazz, she barely talks to me. We did talk at night, but it's like during the day, she doesn't want to talk to me, who knows. :shrug: I get to go help her do some stuff at 10:00, it's like 9:15 right now. I'm leaving for Paris, TX at 10:30, which is about 2 hours away from here. It's alright. Not the biggest town, but it's pretty big. It was on Boy Meets World one time :cool:

haha last night I ref'd my first official high school football game. it was Porter at Kinta. 8 man ball. during the 2nd position of the game, kinta had the ball. and they broke down my sideline. This meant I had to run with them. well, i'm running. you are supposed to trail behind the play so you won't get knocked down and what not. well i am, and here comes to linemen sliding across my line. i hop them. the second I do that. there comes the second wave. I get knocked down! Oh man, it was hilarious. I got laughed at by the older officials.

Thu, 02 Sep 2004 20:31:41 GMT

last night was fun. well i went to the dance. played some pool aka snookers ;D then i came back. chilled in front of the dorm. summer and I hung out. she is cool. cept she smokes. but other than that she is an awesome person. i actually cuddled last night. it was a first ;D but yeah, kissed too. she wasn't smokey ish and junk. but yeah it was fun :)

comments yo'

oh shit, so this happened.

Tue, 31 Aug 2004 17:43:01 GMT

okay, so it was a good and bad night. i was going to go swimming, and when i get there i find out that my swimming trunks, towel, and money had been stolen out of my locker, with the lock off of it. i was so pissed. i asked the lifeguard if they had anyone come and turn some shorts in. i dind't care about the money, those were my favorite shorts. and yeah, so was that towel :/ anyways. i walked all the way across campus, back to my dorm room, and got me another pair and another towel. on my way back i run into amber blue (this is where it gets good) we sit and talk, and she compliments me on my awesome new haircut. i looked hot yesterday, i was super preppy fly guy. :P anyways.. but, we talk, and i end up coming out with a lunch date for today (which was awesomeness) and also. we are going to the football game together friday night. our high schools are going to play each other. it's going to be fun. i can't wait. it was a good night overall, but i'm still pissed about my shit being stolen. who in their right mind steals swimming trunks!!?!1/1/ comment.